Menopause

I remember seeing a comic talking about the "change of life"  Mrs. White said when your young they tell you that you are becoming a woman but when you are older and going through the "change of life they don't tell you what you are changing into.  She stroked her chin and said she was becoming her Father.

That is not what I was becoming.

I was turning into this:

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I would be going along happily, something would happen and would immediately skip over irritation and annoyance and launch right into full blown out of control rage.  The smallest thing would have me so pissed off.  I wanted to start carrying a paintball gun so I could mark the idiots that got in my way on a daily basis.

I decided to get help the day I had my 22 year old bonus son by the collar and I was shaking him back and forth and yelling with my 22 year old son looking on in abject astonishment.  Only minutes later I dissolved into tears.  Ya menopause is fun.

(Big lesson here - I apologized later, explained menopause was hell and went inside to cry.  My son appeared, held out his arms, hugged me and told me he hoped my day went better.  That is absolutely the best thing to do for a hormonal woman  after the fire is out.  I will always deeply love him for being able to see past the rage and see me, shaken and ashamed, and love me anyway.)

  

So I looked for some help.   Since you can't into a doctor in any reasonable amount of time I started doing some research online.  I did make a doctor appointment but figured I bet get help NOW.  so I searched and found that hormone replacement is bad - it will kill you - probably.  There was a lot of antidepressant  drug therapies.  There was some essential oils.  But clinical research suggested most women found relief with an herbal supplement called Estroven.  (Big disclaimer here - my clinical research was looking at reviews on Amazon).  I went to Walmart.  Ya, I'm cheap.  And got some of the Walmart brand which also had a bunch of vitamins mixed in. And guess what?  

 IT FREAKING WORKED!!!!!!

I feel like me again.  Not the nervous, angry, psycho bitch from hell.

It works so good my son told me he hasn't been afraid in a week.  My husband has asked me, with a little trepidation, if I took that pill.

So my advice is this.  If you are having trouble with the hormonal rage that come with menopause (and all the rest of the menopausal fun).  GET HELP.  Whatever that help is for you.  Find something that eases things for you.  Certainly make a doctors appointment, be healthy. Take care of yourself.  Find something that eases your distress into this freaking wonderful "change of life".

And remember you are not in this alone.  There are millions of us with you sweating and soaking our sheets at night right there with you.